.

2008-04-24T20:57:00.003+08:00

THANK YOU CINDY FOR MESSING UP MY WHOLE BLOG.
REALLY APPRECIATED IT.
__
go die alright?

well guys, im back aye.
(yea yea, everytime say this).

today's really crappy lah.
went over to CMBP but yet cant
defer myself from NS.
sian. maybe going in to shout commands
already lo. sigh wth..

went over to Wheelock Place
to bring my "girlfriend" back.
just came back from swiss. bo bian.
those who knows. good for you.
but for those who dont.
its actually my Tissot watch. lol.
sent over to Switzerland for repairs
as there's dent on my watch which
leads to foggyness when there's a change
in temperature at a sudden.

then went to watch Superheroes.
well, not bad.
but they really cutted alot of scene.
but well, its fully packed with laughters
and more laughters :D

reached home and went out to run 10km.
40minutes :D
i love myself

2008-04-08T19:57:00.001+08:00

CINDY KEONG MAN LING!
__

well, updated just for the sake of this
crazy asspunched girl. lol

updating on April 18.
keep a lookout :DD

2008-03-10T14:36:00.000+08:00

There's a new game on the loose.
its called Cabal Online which is another
game from Asiasoft.
the webpage is www.cabalsea.com
guys, if you wanna play.
play on Mercury Server.
NOT ON VENUS!
LOL!!!

2008-03-08T21:30:00.001+08:00

as said, im gonna post photos right?

lol guys, take a look now :D

2008-03-06T15:56:00.002+08:00

going for another kayaking expedition soon!
YAYNESS! LOL!

anyway, sadly to say that my dota skills
has deteoriated. i think its spelled this way? LOL!
ahahah. but yeah, kayaking is the way
of life i actually wanted. cant believe it eh?
yeah, uploading pictures in around a few
more hours or so :DD
BE POSTED!!

2008-02-18T00:40:00.002+08:00

Sunday 17th Feburary 2008

Kayaking course.. gosh.. damn fun ok?
LOL!
i'll forever remember this 2 star course instructor.
as he gave me the damn wth impression.
this is what he said when i capsized.
"clarence! whats the feeling of being the
first one to be capsized?"
WTH!! LOL!

but this instructor is one of the best
in the whole Pasir Ris Sea Sports Club :DD

so, yeah, today is Day 2, left just one more day.
which is next sunday at 24th feb 2008.
style right? and we're gonna kayak around
frog island. tsk tsk.
Tide Predicted = High Tide from 1000-1600hr

talk to you guys later :D

2008-02-14T21:48:00.002+08:00

time has changed.
people did evolve.
this leaves a man stranded;
way back into his own time.

HELLO GUYS!
eat this. ( eat what? )
hmm, anyway, yeah, got loads
of things to complain about (as usual :P)

First things first, O levels!
I got 30 pts. which is like OH MY GAWD!
and now, i dont think i could enter
any polytechnic. wtf?
lol.

Secondly, Valentine's Day still sucks
as ever. got no idea why, maybe because
im single. LOL!

Thirdly, im damn ~~fucking~~ suay to even
lost my phone. so guys, help out abit.
send me your contacts once again.
thanks :DD

FYI guys, I deleted my friendster due to
some specific reasons, so, yeah. Private Matters :D

anyway, came here to clean up the cobwebs..
so, yeah, enjoy:D

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU VALERIE!

2008-01-15T11:48:00.001+08:00

*clarence is doing the household chores now*
----------------------------------------------
*cleans up the cobwebs around this blog..*

clarence : " DONE! "

Hello guys! im back k?
dont worry, i've cleansed my whole blog already :DD
NO MORE COBWEBS!
but soon to come only la :P
hahahas. i cant really maintain a blog now.
or maybe, i could :DD
omfg what am i saying? LOL!!!!!

anyway guys, dining at Fish and CO at the Glass House
is quite nice you know? the ambience. everything!
there's even TV! which is SCV's channel :D
cool right?

anyway, went there with my girlfriend, ivan, eunice,
qingwen, chien juen, chuhong and ben!
thank you guys for making it a great
birthday celebration for my girlfriend k?
love you guys LOADSS!!!

hah.
guys, MISS ME k?
love all my viewers :P

2008-01-15T11:44:00.000+08:00

guys guys!

OH MY ~~FUCKING~~ GAWD!
IM BACK! yeah man.

anyway, a big shout out to my greenish gay kangwei!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KANGWEI!
18 YRS OLD LIAO SIOL!! LOL!

then anyway guys, i've broken up with my previous
and now, im living MUCH MORE happily with another one :D
cool right? heh.

ilu dearest :DD

2007-10-12T23:09:00.000+08:00

i really having a hard time in life now.
anyone can save me?

SERIOUSLY! I NEED A TIME
FOR MYSELF TO REST FROM MY
GOD MOTHER FUCKING LIFE!

yes, this is an emo post.
like it? if dont, just fuck off ok?
click that bloody fucking [X] on the right
hand side of your friggin screen.
understand?

sigh, why on my birthday, i need
to even quarrel with her? is that a need?
or even necessary? sighh :(

happy birthday to me :((

2007-09-10T09:55:00.001+08:00

I’ll never ever thought that something which is so dear to me, to even turn its back on me and now, shatter everything, including my heart, into million and million of pieces. I don’t know why its happening to me, but, for everything I do, its for her. None would believe it, but from my personal point of view, it’s just like this. I never ever thought of the negative things or even those hurtful words, which she accused me. Time is really running out, and Im really sad. My heart is now exposed to the whole world, with nothing as a protection and nothing as a cover. Why this world is so cold? Would anyone even hear my voice when I shout it out loud? Where is my princess whom saved me from my nightmare? Everything is gone, nothing is left. What’s left is only a blank piece of land, a vast waste land, nothing can be compared to this loneliness. Im all alone..
Who is out there? Anyone have an idea?

2007-09-10T09:55:00.000+08:00

To all my readers out there.
Times has changed, and the society is constantly depending onto daily necessities, for instance, our home appliances. Seriously, I don’t know what am I typing over here, but it is an expression of myself to my beloved nation. Over these few years, there is a whole lot of changes among our global temperature and the people among us. Have we gone corrupted?

Currently in Singapore, complains were onto taxes, building of estates, income. Lastly but not least, our Government. In the current era, there’s so much global warming activity made by the human civilization and constantly killing everyone off. Do you guys know that on one of the days in mid August, the whole stretch of Commonwealth Road is TOTALLY FLOODED?!
The flood radically high till it reaches fellow teenager’s kneecap! GOSH!

Anyway, back to topic, my daily life. sigh. Its time to be informal liao lah. Hahaha, anyway, guys.
I don’t know whether there are any readers in my blog anymore. But who cares la. LOL!
Hais, life has been terrible, ever get the feeling that you’re unwanted? Its ironic right?
Yeah, you guys may think that I’ve a stead. OF COURSE I DO, but hmm, look. There’s a lot of turbulences in my relationship now, sigh. Im stressed. Not to blame her of course, but rather its both party which is at fault. I cant really say I have nothing to do with it, so, im just saying that I WONT push the blame to her. Understand?

P.S its been 144days been through thick and thin
There’s more to update, do keep track ;)

Clarence Chua

2007-08-28T12:08:00.000+08:00

ohayo! :)
morning lil blogger readers!
(prolly gd evening for some!)
so, hows life going on for some of you guys?
sorry i cant be frequently coming online
due to some time management for the upcoming
preliminary examinations in my school.

sigh, the topics which were covered is
really cracking my brain out.
lets say, for instance, physics.
formula formulars and more formulaes.
gosh la.
more and more formulars la. and its really
REALLY BRAIN WRECKING.
like duh~ and chemistry, gosh!
i never been studying it.
i guess its time for me to pull up
my socks and dont be like last year already.

anyway, somehow or rather, people
would ask me which poly or even
how many points would i want to
get right? i'll answer here ba.

Points im aiming for is 14 points
and the campus im targeting
is Singapore Poly for the
course " Nautical Studies ".
recommended by one of my primary
schoolmate where i've recently bumped
into him. haha.

times running out for me, i needa go to
school to have my physics lesson now.
kinda late already!
12.14, need to reach by 1.30.
HAHHA! ok, im off, cya guys!
good luck for all the people who is taking
any prelim examinations!

kthxbye

2007-08-18T04:07:00.000+08:00

i'm back up to blogging again already?
up to you guys to decide.
anyway, currently is the scary..
very scary.. 7th month ghost festival..
its quite scary you know? i dont even dare
to really stay up late at night.
and now, im at my cousin's house to
blog onto this post. and i think that
there's something which is around 20steps
away from me. and its 4.13am now...
the "thing" or either is my hallucination
is really disturbing me. damn..

anyway. back to happy things.
on yesterday, friday (17/08/07).
i went home with Jiale and my girl together.
before heading straight home, we went to
IMM for some window shopping. hahaha.
standard and cute routine.
firstly, we went to Adidas. then other apparels
shop and then Giant! HAHAHA!
go inside there and walk walk play play.
mai sng siao. jiale knows how to play the
new song from Jay Chou, the "Secret".
in hanyu pinyin = Bu Neng Suo De Mi Mi.
should be like this ba.
hahaha, anyway, hes really talented.
really admire him :)).

haiss.. now is 4.17am..
and its much scarier..
hais.. just now i did wait for my girl's message.
but, really disappointed la. she didn't reply.
guessed she slept. so, its ok ;)
hah. studying mole now.. boring!

60++ days TO O LEVELS!
BORING!!

to all my readers out there.
JIAYOU FOR YOUR O LEVELS!!

2007-08-10T12:26:00.000+08:00

national day was such an idiotic day.
not to say that the whole event is a failure.
but the organisating commitee sucks.
the shutterbugs (eg. me), cant even take a
good photograph from the stupid
marina square there!
and everyone was packed closely like
"Ayam Brand's Sardines". really stupid right?

and the photographs were not really nice la.
although the fireworks were realy impressing.
but look, everyone is friggin packed.
squeezy!
like wtf? i dont really like squeezy places.
i'll go insane! hahaha.

anyway, i went out with my girlfriend and
saw Siew Chen and Wilson Lee!
coolness :))
hahahas.
ok, then after the parade.
i went photographing at clarke quay.
really good la. ahhaa. enjoyable day if its
not realy that squeezy.
and in the end, there's 3 stupid fucking paikia.
wanna kpkb with me, then smoke infront of me sia.
no big deal. LOL!

okokok, im off. cya guys. take care!

POSTING MORE SOON!

2007-08-09T13:32:00.000+08:00

Today is National Day.
what a delightful day it is. NOT!
anyway, later im going for some night shooting
at the marina thingy.
catching some fireworks with my Canon EOS 30D!
yayness :))
sigh, its been months since they called me out..
really feel like an outcasted person in their grp..
wonder if they know it..
its been like 4 mnths..

emo times..

bahH!

2007-07-25T18:10:00.000+08:00

hohoho!
the lil' palm tree king is back.
sigh.
really dont have the mood to blog lo.
dont really know the reason behind it.
maybe, its my mood swing.
heh.
anyway, nowadays.
many things happened.

im gonna say this out to the readers in my blog.
though its just around few people.
but i dont give a damn.

relationships are gone down the drain.
but what i've seen, is the true
meaning of brother in arms.
dont give up on me when you're down.

2007-07-21T10:27:00.001+08:00

guess what??
im just pretty broken down.
do we really need to think about the
past which have already happened?

why am i so pessimistic?
why cant i be optimistic about BGR?!
why does it suck so much that your current
still cant forget her ex?!

for fuck sake.
i cant believe im living like nobody's business!
like what im doing everynow and then.
walking past these painful
roads of life.
could you forget him?!

i really do not have the answer.
and im really pretty stressed out!

all these while, i know that you're
the perfected one for me. but i didn't
expected that what i believed in.
still is not yet refined in the actual.
could i change her everything?
should i go back to my olden days
where i sniff up some nose inhaler?
or now, choose smoking as my
part time hobby?
wtf?!

im stressed out again.
i dont know how much longer
could i stand these pain.
BGR is an important factor
to lead me to great success in my
o levels.
not that im using BGR
as a success. but im establishing
it at a same time.
formally, we'll call it "Multi-Tasking".

sigh.
but what i've read from my
other half's blog made my mind
in a whirl now. im really confused.
the pain is immense.
and i cant take it..
should i endure?
i guess i should..
because... i love her!

92 days being through thick and thin!

2007-07-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

i aint angry.
but, im just disappointed..
all is left. is just misery, and misunderstanding.

off~

2007-07-07T20:24:00.000+08:00

ok.

i think that, the trilogy has ended.

haha. ok~

tomorrow. is my run!

yay-ness :)

its the PAssion run, by Saucony ;)

guys, better go over there and cheer me on right? :)

13 days more.

21 days left.

to what? let you guys think.

heh. kthxbye :)

2007-07-04T14:43:00.001+08:00

ok, hear me out.

yes, there's a misconception AGAIN! like.. wth?
please. hear me out. your efforts are not wasted.
but its just my typing is haywired.
you're gone-for good is because, after we've argued.
or should i say, my fault. then, sticking around me like
a good friend dont help much. im just a retarded person.
mentally disabled.
cant think much, just doing all the silly o' things.
and here he is. appearing in your life.
i believed that, he'll not bring any sadness to you
rather than what i've done to you.
im sorry, and i cant get this matter off my mind.

and so, as what i've said in the earlier post.
a quote from there :
"i doubt that she doesn't have any feelings for me.".
I was totally wrong.
to think of that you'll have feelings for me? LOL!
thats hell outta of a joke right?
aint that nice? deceived myself from everything.

listen up. im still loving her as what im doing every now and then.
and for some things. i wanna ask you.
can i say :"I miss you as a friend"?
because its like.. how many months didn't we meet?
its not kinda the old days anymore.
and i clearly drawed a line inbetween us right?
or im wrong again?

sigh. you're serious about not going reply my letter?
i guess so..

2007-07-02T12:08:00.000+08:00

sigh. its been a heart throbbling month again.
just cant understand it. why would people
want to misunderstand my goodwill to help them.
practically.
i cant be bothered anymore.
i doubt that she doesn't have any feelings for me.
if not, what's with the response and the sudden
expressions? but, i believe, shes gone - for good.
i believed in myself, she, and our future.
guessed that my beliefs are correct.. NOT!

yup. so, im just gonna give up on her after
all these woo-ing and stuffs. ya know why?
you've made me waited for too long.
im sorry for the misconception and the misunderstanding.
but, i guessed you didn't even hear out my
explainations. so, thanks anyway.

nowadays, im with my girl. yeah, how ironically stupid right?
admiring one girl. while loving another.
but from today onwards. i've decided to be faithful
and going onto one. loving the one which i've
been loving for the past 2months, 11 days.

sorry laopo. im the one which gives you sadness
for these past 2 months. didn't really gave much
of happiness. but i'll promise, i'll give you
the whole world if you want. i'll love you more than
anything and anyone in this galaxy.
i'll bring you to the polar caps to see the glaciers.

now, for some self-made poems.

you're the one,
who made me believed,
in everything,
absolutely everything;
life's changed around us.
you've changed mine.
time passes, and we're still nine.
roll and grow. we have been through these.
up to time, to make us believe.

time; the one thing
which bring us life.
it aint gonna matter to see whos mine.
but i guess, i wonder.
are you mine?
soon, time will clear up the passage of fog.
moving on, and on.
you make me see, and i couldn't
believe that what i've did.
hatred, anger, wrath and vehement.
all of them made up to the one in me.
and yet i dont know, what to be.
vivacious, exultant, jubilant and blithe.
all these were, meant to be.
but i seem to understand what life is.
to be in control of your personal self.
time makes us old, and to think of it.
would i be the one, to walk with you.
to carry you when you're old and stiff.
to be the one, to do all these.
i must to be, the perfect ONE.

but, im sorry i cant be the perfect one.
as i know that, cause, im the rotten one.

2007-06-13T12:42:00.000+08:00

yupps :)) im back to blogging already :D
probably its just the commitment to re-blog
again. heh.

guess what? ever heard of a girl which
you known quite closely which is being asked
or should i say, being REQUESTED to be in
the modelling or acting in those studios
under Mediacorp? no right?
if you think its funny or what. im gonna say NO!
it aint funny nor a lie.
not gonna say out the person's name
cos she wanted to be under low profile.
anyway.

CONGRATULATIONS!

you should know who you are :DD
congratulations again :)
heh.

anyway, its going to be July the 8th soon.
around like 29 more days?
and its gonna be Passion Run!
yup, im participating in the run
which is 5km at East Coast Park!
cool right?
its a competitive run :)
hehehehe. just join for fun.
only wanted the thrill :))

ok guys, im off again :)
ciaos, take care!

2007-06-09T14:35:00.000+08:00

hey guys.
it's time for me to blog already.
it seems to be such a hassle to blog nowadays right?
yeah, practically. there's no time for me to blog.
but still, i'll be blogging. not so frequent like
the past already. yeah. due to the amount of stress
of the upcoming O levels yeah? heh.
anyway, its cute when my pals ( fadhil, jing hui and hafiz )
when we go out together.

i still can remember the days where
we 3 went to peninsula, bugis to buy our stuffs.
ahhaha, it made me laugh, totally CRACKED me up
thanks for the memories guys :D
*loves!*

so, back to the topic. i could'nt get my result
slip from my teacher yesterday due to the outing
where me and my girl went out to east coast park!
hahaha, yup. stressed, due to the fact that she
left me alone from the group. which made me looked
like an outcast. but, nonetheless. shes my only one.
yup. need to treasure her right? LOL!
that is needless to say! come on.
its gonna be our 2nd mth anniversary in around
11 more days. hahaha, ok. bye guys!

i'll update more often :D

2007-05-12T09:37:00.000+08:00

the world is black.
ain't peaceful anymore, but war
is slowly devouring everyone's mind.
war is raging among the folks.
war rages among countries.
who's the victim?
it has always been the children.
would the elders even care about us?

time flies. we've all grown older.
technologically, we've all advanced
in medical science, defenses and etcetera.
but, why aren't there still peace around?
look over at the media.
war and war and more wars.

i cant get it.
why should we fighting
among overselves?
even in our country, Singapore.
gangsters are already roaming the streets
and like from the news reports, bullying
is now common everywhere.
hope our government crack those bullies down.
crime rates are rising, but we're not sure
what is our law enforcers doing.

i've my own police report. and i saw the
burglar was being caught right in my eyes.
and yet, i called back to the officer and he said
that the case have not been cracked.
(my case was reported on 2 years ago).
how lame is it. sigh!

2007-05-07T00:54:00.000+08:00

hi guys. yeah, it's been such a long while
ever since i've been busying myself. thanks
to the massive stress given by CHEC ( my school )
and some other negative stuffs which is disturbing me now.
anyway, thanks for the peolpe whom looked at
my blog and ask me to update. it's you
guys whom i blog for, aint others. so, yeah.

so, how's life for everyone? hope for the better right? yeah man.
enjoy our teenage years whilst we still can :D

oh yea, i've done photoshoots for models already.
yeah, its kinda funky and really nice to ask the models
to do those poses you want. i can really sense the art
of photography and the fun in it already :D thanks
to Mr Jimmy, whom its the name of my photography teacher.
without him, i dont really think that i could even produce
beautiful photographs. taking photos in the studio
is actually really fun, where people would show their
smiles and even play with you. thats the advantage of
photography :D mix with others well :D

oh yea, im grateful for my camera ( Canon D30 ) too.
for giving me such a wonderful memories, which include
bad memories like.. camera fell down etc etc.
LOL.
pathetic right? but there're more good memories than
that SINGLE bad thingy :P hah.
anyway, im going on an outing to Pulau Ubin to take
photos during the june holidays, its only one day though.
i hope that you guys will miss me like crazy!
heh!

hope there would be interesting for photographers like
me and some friends ba :D oh yea. mother's day is
coming already, hope everyone have bought
their gift for their mom :D

take care now.
ciaos

Clarence
-Deadstrength-

2007-04-26T11:23:00.000+08:00

ok guys, im now at home, rotting, due to the
fact that im sick now, vomited the whole yesterday night.
kinda feeling awkward now. sick all over.

2007-04-19T09:37:00.000+08:00

guess what? luck has been coming to my way.
investings, entertainment, everything.
stocks went up by 0.9 cents, aint that nice? :D
and. i've just got myself a PSP ( PlayStation Portable ) <--f3r n3wbz d0nt und3rzs+@ndnz
LOL! EAT THAT! haha..

anyway. but other else. people around me
is having a tough time to get past their
emotional and physical problems faced by them.

how hopeless to see your own friends to be in
such a shitty situation when you cant even
do a single thing? bah.

2007-04-17T10:35:00.000+08:00

ever wonder why its like this?

gosh. where is my packs?
its gone!

guess its time for some photos to be uploaded
and let it do the talking :D

so, when we gonna be like this again?

yea, as above stated.

3 in the night. canal :D

sentosa :D

so, see, its been such a long time since
i've added photos to my blog right?
there you go.

anyway, nowadays im really really busy.
so, could'nt come online that frequently like
what i did in the past. hence, this blog is gonna
receive some spiderwebs. heh. but i'll try my
best to update it sure?

yea. one more thing, my camera is REPAIRED!
nothing inside is damaged. but just that the frame is
out of placing. so, they knocked it back in, though there's
a slight crack over there, but if im gonna repair it.
i think its gonna cost a bomb lo. (tks to The Camera Workshop)

oh yea. i just bought a Gold PSP!
eat that!
hope my mom wont get a chance to see
me playing it. or, the volcanoe is gonna erupt
and have a magnitude of 10! LOL
my teacher said :" the world is gonna end when
an earthquake's magnitude reaches 10 "
which is an utter bullshit to me :D

ok, tags replied already :D
do check in :)

oh yea guys. if there's a person named
LEE in friendster comes after you, tell me.
heh. hes gonna suffer. dammit, dont probe any
questions. CIAOS!

nobody wanna see us together.
but would you want to see us be together?
yea, studies comes first for now. but
i'll love you as always.

2007-04-10T10:35:00.000+08:00

so, you've said that the world revolves around me.
yes, i know that you're busy.
but im waiting for your sms-es // sms
day by day, and over a few days.
i didn't even receive an sms.
is that fair to me?

and now. i've crossed THAT line.
and its always ME who crosses that line.
did you ever think of why i've crossed that line?

think about it. nevermind, its always my fault.
forever and ever my fault.

yet, do you know what negative impacts could
have landed on me when you're chatting
with him via testimonials? EVER THOUGHT OF THAT?!

i've seen your explainations over and over again
already. and, come on, who did this?
think about it.

this frienship is torned.
thanks to him. yea, and you're gonna blame me.

____________________________________________________

anyway, reply to tags over here.
kinda long. thats why.

ken - nah, its alright. go to your
house can already :D got anti-stress de
stuff to do. LOL! i suppose the 7s :) went missing.

lorraine - err. ages? its like.. MONTHS only! LOL!
im aint that old to be called AGES ( literally ).
so, yea. how's life ovr there? librans :((

cindy - LOL! yea yea. you ran away when im ranting
right? ass! :P oh yea. escape theme park! heh

2007-04-07T10:16:00.000+08:00

guess that not really alot of people
know that im facing some shit problems
over something. would you guys think
that its all plainly my fault?
ever tought of that?

derived from sum 41 - pieces.
I tried to be perfect
but nothing was worth it.
i don't believe it makes me real.
I thought it'd be easy
but NO ONE BELIEVES ME
I meant all the things i said

great. one taunt after another.
i aint happy over somethings.
yes, it might been a selfish act
over it. but, lets say, put yourself
into my shoes. whoever is in my
plight would be in a different way.

so, is loving a person so hard?
you may say that im complaining.
but please, who started it? its aint me.
AINT ME!

im like a teddy bear. throw me aside
when you dont need me. whilst only
hug me when you need me.

is that fair? im one human leh. did you
shower your love, care & concern for me?
yes. i saw you defending yourself into the taunts
made by him. i dont reallly blame you for everything.
but, sigh.. im full of disappointment.
will all that waiting come to a waste?
i dont wish that it'll go to that stage.

hope you'll understand.
my stress level is already at the brink,
i may breakdown anytime, but do you even
know that? and this dumb taunts.
IS ADDING UP.

just that you dont know.
but, i cried for you.

2007-03-29T09:31:00.000+08:00

did you guys see me in fuhua?
LOL!
i bet only a few saw me :D
ha.. thanks to Oen Siew Yock, Phor Huay Guan.
and Go Tien Lye. these 3 people barred
me, kangwei, jinghui and many other
alumnis which is wearing home clothes
from entering fuhua. know what's the reason?
reason is "You guys are not in proper attire"
oh shit man. my home clothes are my proper
attire, which is my "uniform".
so, whats your problem huh Phor?

lets get to the point.
Why fuhua barred Alumnis when there's
a major event which is Speech Day.
I went back there for the sake of NPCC.
how sad right? being chased out infront
of the whole prefects crowd.
really appreciated that mr govind understands
the position im in, and i dont really wanna
trouble him. so, we hang out at the
void deck lo.

anyway, my desktop is down. using lappy
for the time being, so, no photos to be
uploaded to friendster nor to send you guys.
sorry :D

i will change just for the sake of you.
my attitude, perception, mindset.
walking styles.. everything.
im willing

2007-03-24T00:22:00.000+08:00

nowadays, most of the people i know
is either sick, or pretty down with
some psychological problems.

get to the point.
seriously, i have an english accent now.
i dont know why, but i love it to the max.
sigh. hate maths totally. stupid algebric
equations which killed me in an instaneous
effect. i never failed maths in my current pvt O's life.
but, sigh, algebra.. I NEED HELP!

any kind samaritans to save me from
algebra's rampage?

my teacher asked me to stay back for a 1 to 1
teaching :DD aint she's good? anyway, shes my
mentor. one hour lesson on a one to one coaching
of algebric equations. I WANT MRS YOU TO TEACH ME!
omg. where is she when i needed her the
most?! SAVE ME FROM ALGEBRA!

2007-03-15T22:02:00.000+08:00

tml is peihan's birthday!
and so. since hes not free tomorrow.
ivan and my friends, went to celebrate
with him just now. gave him a surprise birthday
party leh :DD so gd rite? hehehe

sadly. we gave him a birthday
bash! LOL! sorry man. but, enthu abit mah.
hehe :P

then, after the bash, singing KTV!
woohoo~
sang with eunice "Zhi Dui Ni You Gan Jue"
LOL! omg can?
my singing is like OMG!!! CMI!!!!
sad man. ahaha, but everyone is enjoying it :DD

cya~

2007-03-13T21:01:00.000+08:00

passed the thing to neko already.
and, it seems that everyone is commenting
on the colour of my hair :DD

typical retro singaporean gangster hair colour?
exotic mixture of colour?
its up to you to decide.

hope you like what i gave it to you.
HOPE that everything
would come true by the
end of the year. aft O levels.

2007-03-13T10:42:00.001+08:00

ok. hmm, now waiting for neko to dine finish with
linda and gang. then, going down to meet neko
to pass her something. hopefully, she wants me to
send her home. HOPEFULLY though.. lets wish
for the better.. kinda tired though, slept only 3
hours, cause. i slept over at tw house lo. actually
want to play "Wake our Neighbours" de. but, all
fell asleep -.- lololol. fine~

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do

2007-03-07T21:46:00.000+08:00

aiya, i just dont really want
to talk much for these few days.
yeah, maybe its my hormones
which is vibrating vigrously.
but, its not, im just pissed.

TAGS REPLIED!
_______________
cindy - lol wtf? you're going siao siao
again ah. LOL
jason - yeah, i will get my distinctions :DD
linda - what la. LOL

2007-03-06T22:01:00.000+08:00

despicable cads.
damn those hypocrites.
burn those liars.
extinguish those proud ~~fucks~~.

why are they living in my world?
just fuck off.
i cant be bothered.
dont even sms me nor msg me at
msn k? your help is greatly appreciated.
and i meant what i've said

fuck you, you hoe.
i dont want you back.

2007-02-28T01:09:00.000+08:00

IM BACK! :DD
yeah yeah yeah. dumbasses.
LOL!
anyway, life is not the same anymore.
where clarey is determined to be a
5 distinctionist ( my own word ) =P
ehhehe.
Principals of Accounts
English
Elementary Maths
Combined Science ( Chemistry / Physics )
Pure Geography

although there's some confusions on
geography and poa. but, hmm, im trying
to get a hang of it lo. hahhaa. getting a tutor
for myself already! xD isnt' that wonderful?

BACK TO SUPER RECENTLY!
27/2/2007
________________________________

at home rot. LOL!
rot rot rot *decays*
then, when the night came.
i went to JP to collect my friend's IC ah.
tsk tsk, misplaced at KPOOL!
so. as his buddy, i've decided to take
for him lo.
then, i called kangwei (greenish gay)
to have dinner with me. UNEXPECTEDLY!
after i've waited for around 1 hour, he said
to me :"im not coming anymore". or whatever.
ok. so, called ken and went walk walk.
from JP to pioneer mall (walking).
walk walk walk, reached pioneer mall's mac
and sat there, took some gay photos and
went back to his house to watch some
funny and yet mysterious movie.
1st movie - The Illusionist
2nd movie - Night at the Museum.
yes, i've watch NatM already.
but, just wanna watch the fun parts ah :P

after all those. went back, wore
my shoes and went to the lift.
when the lift closes its door.
the whole lift suddenly gave a
jerk. friggin hell. and its a cable snapped.
im inside there, enclosed. having a minimal
air space. cant really breathe, then i've started
typing a sms to the particular person.
seriously, i meant all those.
after all those, i called the gay technicians
to faster come and rescue the king.
like omg! LOL
im gonna wee on my pants any moment :P
ha. thats should be half of it only. continuing tomorrow!
nytes~!

2007-02-17T12:27:00.000+08:00

wuzzup r0x0rs? :D
yeah. itz b33n s0m3 time <--- WTF IS THIS ENGLISH!?!
LOL!

alright. its reunion dinner thingy today.
dont really know for what shit that
i should even go there. and when
i go there, my capital would drop.
probably due to gambling. LOL!

sighh~ sad case man. my IC went missing.
OMGWTFBBQ1337PWNZ0R!
gonna make a police report soon. aww.
anyway, I'VE FINALLY GOT AN
Levi's Engineered Jeans!
ITS LIKE SO DAMN WHOA OK!!
hah. i know that you guys
are envy :P
heh. anyway, im off now. ciaos guys!
take care during this festive season.
crime rates gonna shoot up high.

2007-02-16T17:24:00.000+08:00

CINDY KEONG SLOW ZERO!

mentioned your name already :D
this would be the post for today!

2007-02-14T22:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL!
from clarence e king

alright, daily posts.
ok, as usual, valentine's day.
boring day. none to date.
none to celebrate with, other
than my guy friends (ivan and qingwen).
hmm, now i know what is called
buddies already.

initially, neko told me that MAYBE, shes
not free on valentine's day. or either, too
busy with other stuff. hence, MAYBE
cant meet me. so, as the normal clarey
will do, i'll just assume that there's
ZERO percent to date her out or
to celebrate her birthday.
but, im wrong. TOTALLY!
gosh, neko smsed over and asked
me to go to JP to celebrate with her.
sadly, my sch end at 4.30
and she gotta go home at 5.
so, sad lo.

i suppose its alright ba.
since there's so many guys celebrating
her birthday with her. so, it should
keep me off her mind lo. yeah, you
guys may wonder "WHY THE HELL
ARE YOU SO DEMORALISED" or
"WHY YOU LACK OF CONFIDENCE?!".
hmm, im just not confident in such things k?

SORRY NEKO! :((

If you get there before I do,
don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my
chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down,
darling wait and see.
And between now and then,
till I see you again,
I'll be loving you.

2007-02-13T19:33:00.000+08:00

omg. lemme post yesterday's incident.
since its so important =P

anwyay, sorry guys. im lazy to blog
nowadays, studying for the stupid O levels.
hehehehehe.
ok. yesterday... after my whole day
of full packed lessons. i went home with
karin, zack and dominic. introduced myself
to dominic. and hey, hes quite nice actually.
because, my first impression of him is just
totally SUCKS, fancy drawing his name at
his spec's frame. what a moron.
but hes quite nice lah :D
so, during peak hours. the mrt platform
at city hall is like omgwtfbbql337pwnz0r.
ok, we went into the train as it arrived.
and IT IS SO DAMN SQUEEZY!
as the train departed, and arrives at
raffles, then to tanjong pagar.
when its at tanjong pagar, i went out of
the train (to be considerate to let people
come out). but bloody hell, people dont let
me in already, and its fully packed.
this is what i'ld call.
the Singapore Spirit.
where everyone is trying to be "kiasu".
pathetic singaporeans.
yeah, TYPICAL! bloody morons with
brains which are stucked at the butt.
anyway, im tired already :((
cya guys,

TAG MORE! xD!

if we could be like
what we used to be.
where we could overcome
obstacles like this.

2007-02-04T01:26:00.000+08:00

went to jjc with a mixed emotions.
cant really describe it.
slack at there from 10am till 5pm.
omg right? LOL!
anyway.
after that, i went back home, where
ivan and zhenfu came too. LOL!
both of them learning how to play
guitar :P (pls praise me)
not long after, zhenfu left, due to
some apparent reasons. and, ivan
carried on learning guitar.
hes inspired by the King playing
Numb - Linkin Park.
hehe. i've great influential strengths.

after ivan left, i went to play soccer
at behind the temple lo. omg.
5v4... me, amiril, guoren and 2 people..
teamed up against 4 malays. ( no offence ).
whoa. i scored 3 goals and gave 2 great assist.
pro ba :P ha, but later in the match.
there's this ITE guy fouled me by tackling
my ball, and there goes me. FLYING DOWN.
omgwthbbql337pwnz0r. and i injured my back.
:(

you are my love, my soul, my girl.
i'll be with you, till the end.

2007-01-28T10:21:00.000+08:00

ok, as usual. weekends...
out to enjoy myself lo. LOL. thats
what I am :D

Saturday
______________

morning wake up at 7.20 and came to msn.
like omgwtfbbq1337pwnz0r early lo. ahahha.
but prepared to go gym le.
chat with emobuddy and went off to
gym with amiril, kangwei and danial. (2 miracles)
weird.. kangwei and danial GOING TO GYM!?!
miracle! xD
anyway, aft gym.
i K.O-ed when reached home.
fell asleep while supposingly
meeting kw at jp at 1.30pm lo.
ha, woke up, late by abit nia.

met up with the 3 ppl again, but there's
kw friends over there also. those grads de.
aww~
play le and went home.

anyway, SINGAPORE won. :D
lionel lewis r0x0r! xD

Sunday
__________

yawns~
slpy la. LOL.
nth to blog :P

2007-01-26T22:24:00.000+08:00

sigh, why am i having such a
crappy life? hmm, yeah. i am
bloody short, incompetent, brainless
and not charming. dammit la.
LOL. seriously. im sick. everything
just dont fall into its right place.
and for some people.
DONT REPLY MY SMS LO!
JUST HACK CARE LA. DONT REPLY LO!

you know who you are.

WHY NO ONE JUST UNDERSTAND?

2007-01-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

woohoo. today is a real
fun day man. yeah yeah~
oh yea~ LOL. wtf am i talking.
lols. okok, get down to the point.

Class at CHEC.
ok great, i went to the White Studio
to learn some things about makeups :D
haha, ok la, only like basic toning all that.
but they only talk crap. so, cant really
listen much.
so, after that, went up to my classroom
called "Sun", it derives from the
person called "Sun Ho (Ho Yeow Sun)"
or wadever its spelled. cos shes famous mah.
thats why its named after her. anyway.
went to my classroom and started
playing some "ice-breaking" games.
which is practically to know each other
better lo. hahaa, and we played the
game which inclusive of Audio learning.
Visual learning, and Kineasthetic learning.
3 learnings. firstly, Audio...our leader
went out and listen to the teacher's
instruction, and later conveyed a
message to us to pass it down to the
last man. must be accurate lo. haha.
but, as usual, cheat to win. so.
we all stand over there and chatted.
and gave the answers directly
to the last man, and won the game.
LOL.
teacher know we cheat, but.. hmm, she
heck cared :D

then the 2nd game, Kineasthetic learning.
walao, about wad deforestation de.
den u nid to move your hands and legs
to show each single keywords. hahahhaa.
make me laugh like mad. LOL.

then 3rd game is the visual learning.
where my team member says
that the picture is all about
MRT close down at 6.30am on a
sunday morning. then CIVIL DEFENSE came.
but he gave wrong answers. LOL.
nvm.

k, photoshoot!
wooohoo! damn fun lo!
even though its at 3pm start.
but its nice!
where guys take their photoshoot first.
then girls.
its SOLO!
i emphasise on this..
SOLO!
yes. solo, and the photographer
is DAMN PROFESSIONAL!
really, hes a professional.
the angles where he took our
photos is like very very nice de.
then the lightings are like OMG
very gd lo. and he said
this to me :"wa, you got a
celebrity look, need to shift
the lightings, to maximize your
potential in the pictures".
listen liao, i totally high sia.
LOL. i dont know why
but really HIGH lo.
then take the photos that time.
all my smiles came out gentle
and stuffs la. but during
the photoshoot. the photographer
taught me the different ways to
pose to make the photos
look superb. yay!

hahaha. then got 1 part, the
photographer gave me a brown
wooden chair. he told me to do
wadever i want to the chair.
he meant a pose la. LOL. then
im just weak at it. dont know why.
but!~ he showed me a nice position.
kinda gay lo. LOL, but.. i think it
projects a very nice photo lo.
ahahha, and the camera is like
omgwtfbbql337pwnz0r gd!
LOL!! ok la, end of story.
nites~!

2007-01-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

im what way im just not comparable
to the person eh? hmm, you haven't
forget him ba. sigh. what else?

choices made with society's coercion;
the hurt accompanied,
there can be no abjuration.

2007-01-19T16:07:00.000+08:00

this is what i get.
feeling so pissed off at times.
bah.

2007-01-18T10:11:00.000+08:00

OHAYO!
morning guys :))

just heard that tomorrow (friday), there's no
npcc training for sec 5. which is like omg?
me and jason going there for wad sia. its
going to be a waste of our time. LOL.
guess i cant shout and blow my temper
at those sec 1 - 4 le. sad. oh yea. i wont forget
my promise (mr teo thing :)). haahaha, just you
wait :) anyway. yesterday was a boring day.
nv meet her, and felt moody for no apparent reason.
probably, is missing her bah. hence, stayed at
home the whole day. played dota, owned
people and they left ( as usual, typical singaporeans ).
so, kinda moody lo. LOL :))
oh yea.
good news :) i've been enrolled into CHEC :)
a good private school but its at city hall there.
near SMU. like omgwtfbbql337pwnz0r far =(
ha.

cheerios!

2007-01-13T22:05:00.000+08:00

sigh. guess i've screwed things up.
but, all my actions cannot be condoned.
so, i'll just take the blame and head
off to emo chateau.

why the girl just DONT want to tell me
all the problems she faced?
did you even bothered to tell me?
did you even wanted to tell me?
for the both of the questions. the answer
is NO. seriously, i wanted to shout my
lungs out ( probably i can do it on upcoming friday).
back to commanding my troops and give
them HELL just because i feel down
on that same particular day or either
its accumulated.
back to the topic. its like.. you dont
even want to tell me. and i dont know why.
because my reaction will be big?
or i have this ~~fucked~~ up attitude?
trying to be a hero, but down to a zero.
how crap can this be? i dont know.
but this is my life. anyway.
just to tell the particular guy..
DONT MAKE ME HUNT YOU DOWN.
OR I WILL RIP YOU APART.
AND GIVE YOU HELL BEFORE YOU
MEET THE REAPER.

can anyone take this heat?
i bet no. heh.
crap everything, crap crap.
crap life, crap attitude. what's more?

2007-01-11T07:53:00.000+08:00

Here's the lyrics for the song
which is currently played.
its actually from the movie
Eragon (2007) which Avril wrote
for the show. although its much
cropped up than the actual book though.
and if you watched it, i bet that you
will think that the story is too fast
paced already, example from one
scene to another. lol. WHO CARES?!
just enjoy this nice song. pretty
sentimental to me though. hehe xD
Enjoy Folks.

Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No, I won't give in

[chorus]
Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when
it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the door's closed
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah

[chorus]
Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way
when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Hear me when I say
When I say I believe.
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
La da da da, la da da da
La da da da da da da da da

[chorus]
Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way
when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Ahh, ahh
Keep holding on
Ahh, ahh
Keep holding on
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way
when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

2007-01-06T23:21:00.000+08:00

for all these while.
what was the thing which
is the reality? i've been
falling thru the skies. I
thought you dropped me to
have a chance to glide. but,
soon, i realise, i am falling.
you said you gave me a parachute
to deploy after awhile, but.
there was NO parachute.

all these were my false hopes.
praying to god above. hoping
that you'll come back one day.
hmm? none answered.
sucks totally.
there's this photograph. rather,
its a drawing by me. i was
too emo till these drawings came
by on me. here. enjoy my
personal drawing.

I SHOUTED FOR HELP, YET, NO ONE HEARS

you've been giving me all the false
hopes that i thought it was real.
i cant differentiate
the difference between
Reality;
Virtual

and after some incident. im really
really depressed. people whom
asked me whether i have depression anot,
i dont really know how to reply you guys.
i find myself have this problem.
DEPRESSION.

now, im not sure about myself.
should i carry on? or give up?
anyone could bring me away
from this pain?
grim reaper? please?

should i wait or not.
i dont want you to go
with that person.

2007-01-05T00:53:00.000+08:00

woo~
im high on alcohol again.
just as usual. problems arises.
and there goes me, become a
half dead person. i wanna escape
all the problems like what im feeling
now. carefree. but i know tis not for long.
anyway, before this. around at 7++
i wrote this. now basically
copying and pasting.

I thought you were mine,
but, didn't expect things to turn
back on me.
Running across the golden meadows,
excited, yet overwhelmed to meet you.
Upon tripping onto a stone on the ground.
I went down, slowly.
yet hitting the ground with such force
which felt like G-Force, could'nt move my
limbs, and I shouted :"Is god playing a
prank on me?".
All the while, I've picked apples just
for the person whom i liked.
high ontop of the tree, which i fell
quite alot of times. but, its the
sake of you. and now, the pain
is killing me. yet, i shouted
for help, but theres no answers.

alone in the field, used my cellphone
to call the person, yet, none responded.
i knew you wont be waiting for me, cos.
im a dropout, rather than anyone else.
would you even care?

after a few days, i stood up. feeling hungry
yet weak, but, made my back back to my
EMO CHATEAU!

that was what i wrote, and there's
a few drawing. not gonna post
it though. till anyone requested
it to be posted or sent// whatever.

2007-01-04T18:56:00.000+08:00

damned life.
dont know how to explain.
and neither i want to explain.
its just that the life of mine
is so hectic, i seriously
need a break from all these crap.
guess its time for myself to
visit the emo chateau again :))

it is written in the stars
that you're not mine.
~~fuck~~ this life

2007-01-01T14:38:00.000+08:00

Clarence, your mood tends to swing between Enthusiastic & Sad.

Most of the time you feel enthusiastic as evidenced by your positive outlook on life and your high levels of energy. When you feel sad, your outlook on life tends to be negative and you are plagued by feelings of dissatisfaction.

2007-01-01T14:14:00.000+08:00

as long as the stars shines over the heaven,
as long the river flows the the sea
there'll always be you and me.

i can see us holding hands.
walking on the beach with our
toes in the sand.
and we sit by the country side's
grass, lying side by side.
listening to each other's heartbeat.

if my life is like this. it'ld been
better than the life im having now.

2007-01-01T03:58:00.000+08:00

after receiving an sms from
neko. sigh. its very very VERY
T.T lo. maybe its not the right
time to have a relationship bahs.
guess that i need to wait after
the O levels already. but if you
let me to prove to you that i
will not let any emotional blows
be affecting you, cos, most prolly.
it wont really happen to us

i know its stupid to have such a
naive thinking of things over relationship
matters. but, really. i hope that
there'll be a new beginning rather
than an end. i've been wishing for
a fairytale to appear, which i already
found out that its right infront
of me. and why would i want to let
it go? yes. i find that waiting till
after o's is long. but, what to do?
its my fairytale. im suppose to
wait for it to realise and become
to a reality. a good fairytale.

im not gonna let go;
im not gonna give up.
thats the reason why im still
here, right with you. although
some times, im really away la.

but anyway. you're the most
important thing in my entire
life. even my family cannot compare
to you. seriously, you should have
known for sure. you're irreplacable.
the urge of meeting you is very
VERY strong.
yes. its really irresistable.
every moment which i spent with
my friends, im holding onto my
phone, slowly, yet painstakingly.
waiting for your sms.
I CANT BEAR THE PAIN.
only can say that is, i'll get
and hold onto every hope.
that is for sure.

after reading your blog. the
two posts. im thinking in
my brain, deep down that
everything i do, cannot help
you cleanse the pain? what
can i do to make you feel better?
really, the thoughts of all these
can already kill me. which i
dont even know why.

i only need one shot .
would you let me try?
i wanna hold you in my
arms till the sun goes down.
is there anything i could
do to make you feel better?
this feeling is so rotten. *cries*

2006-12-29T01:26:00.000+08:00

hey guys. im back to blogging again. LOL
okok. its like im off from blogging around
a few days only and crappy me, exggerating
it till like i came back after missing a few centuries.
=)

anyway. today went out with vuzzy to
go to jason's hse for some book collecting.
or should i say, taking of books for self
referrence due to the O levels stream for
her next year =) sigh. thinking of this.
which private school am i going to?
i have totally No Idea! gosh! how
i hope it was BMC (JE). rather than YMCA
or CEHC. their fees is rather higher by
around a thousand to two thousand or so.
and i cant guarentee that it is very
promising that if i entered that school
(ymca // cehc ), my results will be very
appealing lo. further more, its located at
town area. wth right? if i wanted to meet
ivan // neko. it will be very very very
inconvenient lo. crappy shit. if i were
at BMC, things would be much simpler.
and for that huge amount of so called
"savings" if i choose BMC, i could get a
private tutor and teach me right? dummy
mother of mine, wan me to wear uniform
and go to town. ITS SO NERDY PLEASE!

anyway. why am i talking bout this. LOL.
*back to topic of jason's house* before
meeting neko over at jp. i gave her a slight
surprise, which is meeting her over at the
bus stop without giving any notice. aww.
so, there we are, on the bus then. while
the crappy bus is moving, my heart there
got some pain lo. very striking. i had this
stupid and weird condition which has been
with me for ages already. and i dont know
what the crap is it or what the diagnosis is.
sorry if i let you think im angry =(
neko asked me to sit. and i could'nt really
think well. hence, i didn't sit down lo,
and all the while from fuhua's bus stop
there till JP, i was really in a great pain.
i bet neko thinks im angry with her.
sigh..
alighted over at JP le. walk at a slightly
weirder pace. not that consistant unlike
last time, due to the shitty pain. ignored
neko as i cant really hear my own thinkings.
grr. and i brought her to jason's house then.
using my own intellectual knowledge, sense
of direction and memory. cos, went there before
mah. LOL =P haaah. went into the hse, take
book liao den go off lo~! poor jason. his
cupboard split off from every joints.
lousy engineering la! LOL. wahaha. xD
then carried this 2 "light" bags of books.
and neko carried this "heavy" bag of book.
hah, she dont want me to carry the 3 bags.
so, she decided to take one. very "ti-ki" hor?
*ti ki means stubborn in hokkien*

lalala, went to send neko home then =) heh.
took the crappy bus back again. and viola~
reached her bus stop and sent her home.

soon. went over to JE to play pool (snooker).
lols. 1v1 rounds first. elimination. got 4 players
only. sad =( nevermind, i and ivan started the
ball rolling first. its me and him challenge siahx.
playing 9Ft table. the table is so damn big lo, woots.
so nice, yet so big. LOL. seriously, their
cue needs to be changed. although there are many
cues. but all like kalakapok liddat. wth lo. and
all are very light. making the cue cannot unleash
the full potential. then, took the heaviest cue
and play with ivan. =) initially i was winning like
a pwnz0r. but.. after that, my confidence brought
me to a dismay where i nearly lost to him =P
wahaha. EAT ME! i left 3 balls, while ivan
is 5. then.. ratio ah.. 3-5 initially.
2-3... 2-1.. 0-1..
0 means left the stupid No.8 ball.
and wahhaa, shot it in =P poor ivan. wahahaha.
mai siao siao, ivan is quite a good player eh.
really, hes quite good. then. next match
is tony vs me. winner in, loser out.
lol. heh, this match confirm win de.
and again, i over-confident in winning le.
ALMOST LOSE AGAIN. LOL! whaha
but win again :) , last match. me and
jinghui. he dun wanna play. gay. go
snookerium but sit there and ROT. LOL
nvm, pass it to ivan, then. this round. i
lost T.T wahaha. next round was
doubles. and whoever in my team sure win
la. aiyo, cos we cheat =P
anyway. im tired already.
good night everyone.
enjoy yourselves =)

i wanna hug you! roars~
when can i do this?
you're more than what i wanted.
and please. dont go =(

2006-12-26T20:18:00.000+08:00

zhi pa wo zhi ji hui ai shang ni.
bu kan rang zhi ji kao de tai jing.
pa wo mei she me neng gou gei ni.
ai ni ye xu yao hen da de yong qi.

im just too afraid to take any steps
forward unlike last time.

2006-12-26T19:44:00.000+08:00

im gonna go EMO totally.
life suck these few days for me.
i dont know why, christmas isn't that
merry afterall. kangwei said no one
informed him to go out during christmas
eve, and said its his last year. all those.
i felt guilty, why didn't i told him, afterall.
hes my friend, besties somemore. but,
heard from xq that she informed him already.
thats why. sorry kangwei.

and for the whole day of christmas, i've been
thinking and thinking of that particular
someone. not much of sms were sent.
makes me feel unwanted lo. and every
night. only send those goodnight messages.
and nothing else. i dont expect more, but
someone just needs to accompany thru
this ~~damned~~ boring life.
i was hoping that there'll be more smses
to be recieved. but to my dismay, only around
7 were recieved. each intervals were like
30 mins or so, or even HOURS. nevermind.
maybe im just a little too PARANOID.
i'll just need an explaination from you.
mind giving me a few?

not gonna say anymore, just too
disappointed. really disappointed.
all these while. my hopes were
flying high. yet to this kind of situation
which im in, i dont know how to handle
it. how freaking weak can i be?
SUPER WEAK

sometimes i get this feeling.
you're watching over me.
but, this feeling is only
for a short period of time,
not long lasting. which
caused myself to be more
mentally hurt. forget me.
leave me behind.

2006-12-24T12:07:00.000+08:00

CINDY KEONG
MAN LING!

YOUR NAME IS MENTIONED
LIAO! LOL! HAPPY MA? =P

2006-12-24T11:22:00.000+08:00

heh. yesterday ah. went to
EXPO hall 7 for CHC X'Mas
Concert lo. was dragged along
by eunice. wanhao, ivan,
chien juen, peckhoon and xiaoqing
were also dragged along T.T ha.
upon reaching at EXPO. i told eunice
that im a "Usher" under the Usher
ministry last time, she dont believe
me lo, wth? she thought it's a hoax.
crappy eunice! grr! insult me -.-
nevertheless. saw my ex-cellgroup
member Jimmy ;) woots. he
wanted to pull me back into
CHC, but.. refused. heh.
so, as usual, praise and
worships. clapped to the beat
but not as enthuastic like last
time le. lols. after the whole
praise and worship. there is a slight
sermon, and i was falling asleep!
requested some sweets from wanhao
to keep me awake, but he dont
want to give me. crappy wanhao! grr.
hahas. nvm, ate my green apple
lollipop xD SO NICE LO.
hahaha. then, shortly after
slight sermons, there is a
drama which is about how
Lord Jesus was borned on
Christmas day xD its a
very touching drama can? but
got some flaws though =P
and the whole drama ended.
we ate eunice self baked
cookies! so.. HARD! walao.
like rock lo. roars! need
my molars to bite the whole
thingy. today, its either my
teeth strengthens or i'll
plan to go the dentist near
my home to have crowning. =P
hahaa. but, it was quite
tasty though xD good job anyway =)
then, went to cineleisure to
eat long john de COMBO 1 +
2 reg fries + upsize to large
+ cheese ;) woots.
eat eat eat. and was 11.50pm
already. sian. last
train towards green line HAS
DEPARTED! gosh! so, can only
take the train towards jurong
east // woodland // bishan
that line. wth? 1hr ride -.-
and omgosh. got this 2
bangadashe, GUYS, SITTING ON
THEIR LAPS. one sitting over the
other guy's lap. GROSS!
ha. took down a photo though.
over at joshua's phone, cos.
we bumped till each other very
coincidentally while going over
cineleisure ;) hahas.
then, i stood up from somerset
till jurong east. gosh..
my legs are breaking liao. hahaha.
then, its around 12+ le, chien juen
cannot go home, so, as a guy, nid to
help her ma. hence, send her home from
jurong east to jurong west street 91.
Nanyang thingy wth there. gosh.
DAMN FAR! ROARS!
hahas. ltr i update ba =P cya guys
enjoy your xmas later ;)

oh yea. yewtinn wrote one pervertic
xmas card to me. LOL. enjoyed it though
xD cya guys!

neko.. WHERE ARE YOU!
im miss you! =(

TAGS REPLIED!
_________________________________________

ryunosue - maybe she said those without thinking.
but, its DAMN hurtful :(

joshua - your plans are not that good enough.
you are still a evil boy under training. must
put grease over at his wheels de. and the
braking system there, put more grease =)
let him die of accident =) thanks anyway

hupLian - ee yer, i got say hi to u lo, if not
i wont even bother to look at you =P
hahahas. take care my friend xD

linda - hope u are right ba =(

jason - cannot be menopausing la. aiyo.
shes only 44? so fast menopause den siao liao.
LOL

wolfymistake - hope u get ur card soon ;)

2006-12-21T09:59:00.000+08:00

mom. if you get a glimpse of this
blog, u'll know how frustrated am
i everyday. life is difficult
for me living under your commands.
and when im fed up, u still
talk sense in me. some sort of nag
and its KILLING ME. today at 9.50.
u talk and talk and talk while
i am playing games. YOU COULD ASK
ME TO STOP THE GAME BEFORE TALKING
RIGHT?! I TOLD EVERYONE IN THE
HOUSEHOLD THAT NO ONE MUST DISTURB
ME WHILE GAMING. get that? if not..
get what you requested indirectly.
people says im infillial.
but if i am really not showing any
fillial piety towards you and dad.
im sorry, ur eyes must be at your
butt. IF IM NOT, then what is those
words are coming from my mouth? i
only requested :" mom, can stop
going any further in this topic
anot? " and she said that my tone
was like wtf? my TONE IS STILL
KEPT COOL. SO WINSTON AND DANIEL
IS FAR FRICKING BETTER THAN ME LA.
LET ME GO WITH DAD. IM JUST A
DEVIL. A USELESS AND SHITTY DEVIL.
MISCHEVIOUS UNTILL WHOLE UNIVERSE
OWE ME SOMETHING. THAT IS WHAT YOU
SAID IT FROM YOUR MOUTH. SAYING
THAT THE SCHOOL DONT WANT ME BECAUSE
I GOT FEUD WITH ALL THE TEACHERS
IN MY SCHOOL. THAT IS HURTFUL.
I ONLY SAID TEO IS THE BUGGER. BUT
U SAID EVERYONE. DAMN LA! YOU'RE
RUBBING SALT TO MY WOUND ALREADY.
SAYING IM A FAILURE TO THIS FAMILY.
AND BRINGING ME TO O LEVEL IS A WASTE
OF MONEY. YOU NEVER EVEN TRIED, HOW THE
HELL WOULD YOU KNOW. I KNOW MY LIMITS.
BUT O LEVELS I CAN TRY. YOU DONT
BELIEVE IN ME THEN FORGET IT. STOP
MESSING UP MY LIFE. DAD ALLOWS ME
TO STUDY MORE, BUT YOU DONT WANT.
ITE IS WHAT YOU WANT FOR GOODNESS SAKE.
NOT MY CHOICE. ONE LIFE. LIVE IT.
MY CHOICE. MY DESTINY.
understand? sorry for all the caps
guys. just feeling that its my life.
i owned it. not my mom. yet shes
nagging all way. i said in a normal
yet calm tone to her saying stop
the rants. ( in chinese though ).
but she said i was being such a
unfillial son. my mom even
hoped that i was not even borned
into this world. she was
totally brainwashed by mdm oen.
fine. dont want me to go O levels
right? i'll mix with hooligans lo.
you'll get what you want eventually.
this is your wish. i'll grant it
unless there is alot of protestant
telling me not to.
then, it'll be at your disadvantage =)
oh ya. u said that i never accompanied
u guys to eat in the breakfast. FOR
GOODNESS SAKE. I DID OK! and friends
were more important, which u said.
its true. i put friends infront
of my family, except for my dad.
i'll put my dad infront of my friends.
dad gives Clarence Chua
full respect. so, Clarence Chua
gave back full respect to dad.
understand? you dont give a damn to me.
i wont give a damn to you. unless
you start giving me respect and
SHOW ME THAT IM BEING RESPECTED.
then, i'll give you the priority
like how i gave to dad.
understood?
see, on every sunday, i'll make it
to dad's house to eat, cos, hes
the breadwinner in this fricking
family. he worked till late nights.
estimated tt sleeping around 11 - 12pm.
then wake up at 4am. 4/5 hours sleep.
u think is sufficient? and working
under such transportation industry
is not that simple hor, hes the controller
plus the accountant plus the WHOLE COMPANY.
and its not easy for him to manage it alone.
its damn tiring ok. i did it once, and
i cant really take it. but u were complaining
6 years ago that he was womanizing around.
if he really did that, then ok lo. fine.
but he has the capability. can de-stress.
opps =x hahas. but, seriously. he is
very stressed out till a point where
daddy kept taking painkillers. his spine
is already dying. but for the sake of
this family, he still goes on.
YOU ARE JUST SILLY TO NOT KNOW ABOUT
THIS SITUATION.

although im silly fuzzy. but im superbly
strong in all the aspects except for fashion
industry :P (i suppose so) lols.
oh yes. like you said, im neither
handsome nor cute. so, either you disown me
and let me go and stay wif daddy or what.
cos, dad will treat me better in a way and
i only promised him that i'll show tremendous
improvement if i go to O level. rather than
YOU. dad r0x, mom ..errr.. wadever xD

2006-12-20T15:59:00.000+08:00

ok, since my tag is like omg
flooded. i'll use an entry
as an reply for my tags.
____________________

came back from prom, whoa.
so tired ok! 7am reached
home and slept instaneously.
lols. prom night was really
quite badly organised though.
thought it was going to be a fun
after such debates and hurlings
of profanities. but, turns out to
be like this crappy -.-

and my N lvl cert thingy was LOST
after i ran ran ran and it just
came off from my blazer.
omg right? scary..
haha. yst ton-ed at cineleisure
and watched "The Holiday"
midnight show. wow, 2 1/2 hr
show lo. lols! during the show.
i slept for around 3 minutes
only. then.. eunice uses her elbow
to hit my elbow.. and i woke up
with a thudding heart. wth?
scared the crap out of me lo!
den stayed up for the
whole show later xD the pricing
was kinda cheap. $6.50 for
one ticket. heh. and i paid $32.50?
or wadever. SOLO again. sian.
lols =P

oh ya. prom..
when i entered the ballroom, everyone
was stunningly gorgeous and suave.
last time, everyone was like a flawed
jewel, but now.. everyone
is shining like a star. very "hot".
heh. but i dont go around saying
that he or she is hot or wadever.
i have my principles :) jessica
asked me why never take a photo
with her and yet nv say hi.
omg. crap right?
i just entered and u expect
all that -.- lols.
then, after that. when prom
offically started. everyone
went taking photos
here and there, and
went eating at the back
of the ballroom. a sort of
buffet. but i dont really eat.
cos, i ate with neko at
sakae sushi xD SO FILLING CAN!?! xD
so, i practically skipped their
buffet and went to take photos
with alot of people.
took with all the NA students.
i mean 1/2 of the NA students =)
crap la. i mean sec 4 xD hahas.
then, we "yum seng-ed" the
loudest. thanks to kangwei
whom proposed the idea.

and there is this girl. i dont
really know, came over and said
this :"eh? i tot u were THAT short
last time? u grow so tall liao ah? "
walao. insulting + complimenting
me lo. hahha. but nevermind, i took
it as a compliment :) and
told her :" u are? i dont know u lo. ha.
but anyway, its u shrinked. i didn't grow
tall at all. " its weird when people
start going towards u and asking
all these weirdy questions. hahaa.
but enjoyed the weird conversations.
and then met serene over
at the ballroom, carrying a guitar.
sang a song and said im a gay.
WTH!?! WHEN DID I BECAME A GAY!
IM STRAIGHT OK! there's only
neko in the placing of my heart :)

then ate liao, moved to photo
taking with ALOT ALOT of people
including rongjie, pk, qingwen,
ivan, kangwei, derek. guys lo
ha. but after that, girls came
around and wanna take photos
with us. so, i said alrights.
but, only one photo. dont stand
too close to me, or people will
mistaken or whatever. LOL
heh. neko, dont worry ok? :)
so, took photo with only
a handful of girls. after the
whole thingy, chuhong
was crowned the Prom Queen.
brought glory to the
N(A) stream! yeah man!
actually, we cheated.
the gay prefects said :" NO
giving of 2 stars to one gender
only. " which means, each one
has 2 stars, but must only
vote 1 guy 1 girl.
but we cheated :) voted on 2 girl.
which is chuhong only. ha.
totally cheating :) yet no
one cares. im just too pro.
but as jessica is my friend.
hence, gave her one star also.
dont wan her to be sad
tt i gave all to chuhong mah.
lols.

so, prom ended. and hugs
were given to everyone. i mean
closer friends la. jessica
gave me a hug and went
off. but i nv really hug her la :)
NO WORRIES! then,
took a few last grp
photo with my class to
be a sign of rememberence
for me. last meeting with them :)
and my tears was like
gonna come out liao. lols.
stupid right me?
took a few last photo and
gave my last hugs to guys
and girls from my class and
4F people. like what i said.

I will be with you guys till
the end of secondary schooling.
but due to unforseen circumstances.
I cant stay with you guys. sorry again.
can only promise you guys that
if you need assistance in organising
any events. I'll be always here
to lend a helping hand. and
there sure will be a outing for us
to meet again =) cheer up ok?

ok guys.

TAGS REPLIED :))
____________________
cindyy - thanks, i'll cheer up :)
zf - mr teo is just too much la.
what a bugger he is -.-
jason - i'll TRY xD
neko - its something like the end
of the world to me already.
but i try to make it a
"take and go" situation ba
cindyy - i'll put curry puff into this
exhaust pipe + use some metallic
thing to scratch it one day.
nameless - thanks, i'll TRY. as i said =P
linda - i already had plans to meet
my friends after i study =)
wolfymistake - 7 colours spin fast
becomes 1 colour eventually.

2006-12-19T12:20:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO ASSASINATE MR TEO
AND SCRATCH HIS GOD DAMNED
MAZDA 6.

hes such an asswipe can?
what for to plead mdm oen to
promote me up to sec 5
when that mr teo is around
adding fuel to the fire
or another verse is
adding salt to the wound.
hes an asswipe.
infront of my mother and mdm oen.
that bugger rake up
the past and made me go
insanity. so, i also
scolded him back.
for being such an
irritant to the whole society.
i'll make this promise to
EVERYONE.
that. I, Clarence Chua.
WILL DO DAMAGE TO HIS DAMNED
LOSER CAR. MAKE HIM PAY
FOR ALL THE SHIT HE DONE
TO ALL FUHUA-NITES AND
TO CHAN CHEK YUN. i tell
u guys. hes gonna be far
sadded. :) im not gonna
avenge for chekyun himself, but
for everyone. :)

dont let me promote den say la.
dun freaking mess around
when my mom is there looking.
u think u sexy leg can win issit.
basket. i sexy back u la.
PE HoD. big deal?
I CASTRATE YOU THEN YOU'LL KNOW!
make you no father day.
yes im childish.
cos this is in a fit of anger.
sorry to everyone whom pinned
high hopes on me, esp. neko.
eunice. zf. wh. ivan. qw.
tony. danny. cj. xq. wilson.
joshua and many more.
im sorry :( cant accompany you
guys till the very last.
i know i did my best. but, my
efforts did not really paid off.
so. if i really can enter private O's
which IF my mom allows.
i promise you guys. i'll get 25
points or less in my O levels.
its like 25.. easy la..
but my chinese and geog will
pull me down hor.
so, dun think so easy la :P
ha.
aiming 3 a1's for math, sci, eng.
while others den anything la. LOL!

alrights.
bye guys. off to prom nite :)

CHEERIOS GUYS!

sorry guys for pinning
high hopes yet getting such
a result from me. im just
another hinderence to
this society. and neko..
dont be devastated ok?

2006-12-18T22:03:00.000+08:00

sighh...
im just too mentally
and physically tired.
one big thing happened.
and it crushed my entire
life totally lo.

N levels ruined my life
totally. ok, i mean that i ruined
my whole life all by myself.
why could'nt i study like
the 2 months where i chiong
my studies? IF I DO IT. I WILL
GET A ONE POINT FOR MY
BLOODY MATHS!
ITS VERY FRUSTRATING LO!
1 point also cannot get.
why not i just die and leave
this terrible world. but, there
is one person im just holding
onto only. i dont know why, but
initially, my eng was
my strongest subject.
but sadly.
now, it is a grade 4. WTH!?!
and my science. also
strongest.
AND ITS GRADE 4.
WTH!?! i cant believe it
when my form teacher said
that i'll be retaining.
why should i retain?
i wanna go up to sec 5 and
look at her for one last year.
then go to poly // jc tgt.
but wth? this is what i
get. i hate it. damned life.

how hopeful i was trying to
go up to sec5, even before
the results were out. and
yet this is such disappointing
crap. need to retain? GO DIE.
I WILL NEVER RETAIN!
i rather go learn at pvt O.

since i heard that im the one
that retained and 11 points.
i went drinking with
kangwei, chekyun, shaowei and friends.
gd enough rite?
initally i dun wnana drink. but..
since this N level thing came
into my life and crushed my
world instaneously. i'll just drink
till my mind finds that im practically
alrights. shes very worried bout me
i suppose. but yet im such a letdown.
useless right me? sigh. now.
im having a terrible hangover.
A VERY TERRIBLE HANGOVER!

dont let me go..
i wanted you so badly
till im going nuts over
you. whatever i said
its true. do believe me

2006-12-17T03:21:00.000+08:00

ok. today went town with ivan with
a heavy heart. i dont know why.

met him on the way.
let the picture do the talking sure?

ivan smsing xe.
lols.

the picture of a
fairy young kiddy. behind me :P

okok. craps.
then, went over to orchard to find wilson lee
and joshua. bored again.
went inside OG. and kajiao them.
lols, FUN ok!
xD

since we're partially cracking
lame jokes and disturbing them, the
manager decided to throw us out.
and make us wait for them till 10pm ++
for them to end their work.
hence, while waiting for joshua and wilson
to be ready, i and ivan took this
nice photo :P

clarence - ivan
cute right? lols

then, went over
to LJS to accompany
wilson to eat. since we're all
filled except for him.
here's 1 photo :)

joshua were caught
totally unaware. so. got this
lil dao face :P

heh. then went home lo, at mrt.
took some gay photos! xD

me and joshua ;)
buddies :)

thats all folks.
just gonna say that i had a nice time
with the 3 of them lo xD

do you know that your
words can kill me
instaneously? it
was disappointing for
me to hear it. sigh, i
have nothing to say anymore.
guess i need to give you more
time.

2006-12-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

MOM, STOP YOUR PICKINGS
ON ME, COULD YA?!
IM GETTING SICK AND TIRED
OF YOUR BLOODY FRICKING RANTS.
EVEN THE BEST OF MY DAYS WILL
BE GOING DOWN TO THE LOWEST LA!
PLEASE HOR! NO ONE ASK YOU TO
STAY IN THE LIVING ROOM AND HEAR
WHAT SONG AND THE LOUDNESS RIGHT?!
~~STICK INSIDE THE ROOM LA!~~

crap ok! u made me do all this crap.
went out today with such a good mood,
came back with A UBER GOOD MOOD.
and all became thrash after 11.35pm.
bloody hell.
just please. stop the rantings. i
dont really wanna say anything bout
you ok! so, dont push me till a corner
where i'll just do something
YOU CAN NEVER EVER IMAGINED
and make you feel that i was never to
be borned nor to be your ~~fricking~~ child
ok! you lied to the lawyer + judge and
asked daniel to write a fake testimony
and there you get ALL THE BLOODY
FRIGGIN MONEY!
its half a million ok. basket. NOT
A SMALL SUM hor. pls think, dont
make me report anything. EVERYTIME
you're like this, making me curl
up at a corner feeling so helplessly.

now, give me a break and lemme blast
my stereos.

and guess that i'll need to wait for some
things to happen ba. sigh

2006-12-10T22:56:00.000+08:00

heh. today went to marina square AGAIN.
crap rights? LOLS! heh. sorry joshua!
i needa go home first, so, never meet
you at OG(your working place). hope
ivan,zf and wh did find you ;)

talking bout today's shopping, im
damn contented xD hehe. lets start from
the starting which is after i meet
zf and wh at jurong east green line
de platform, last cabin. late as usual
becos was trying to find a suitable
shirt to match with my blazer :O
heh. at that moment of time, i was
PANICKY LO!
lols. so, took a crappy t-shirt
went over to JE to meet them lo :P

upon reaching at JE, met zf and wh.
there we go, to
MARINA SQUARE
haha. met ivan over at marina square.
went over to Zara, G2000, U2.
i felt not very comfortable with my
inner T-Shirt, hence, CLARENCE
the ALMIGHTY ( which is me )
~~requested~~ ivan,zf and wh to go
RipCurl with him.
hehh. went to Quiksilver first, then
to RipCurl. oh drats. Quiksilver has
VERY LITTLE VARIETY for long sleeve shirt.
*cries* and the pricing is crap.
$89.90 for a LOUSY design and
crappy.. err, quality? (no offence
to all quiksilver fans or wadever).
so, walked out from Quiksilver
and went over to Ripcurl. ROARS!

at Ripcurl, i was looking for long
sleeve shirts. so, there are 2 designs
which caught my eye totally. as in..
TOTALLY lo! nice designs
and yet QUITE budget :P tried one shirt.
and sadly to say, it has M and L size
only. OMGWTH?! sian, so, looked at
the second design and tried it on.
AISEH! damn nice lo, LOLS. a great
design with such a ~~handsome~~ guy
wearing it. HAHA! xD (i know im bhb)
then, wore my blazer. WAH LAO!
stunning sia :P heh. okok, self
praising is not my type. so, bought
the shirt already and went to toilet
to change clothes. LOL! change to the
shirt IMMEDIATELY! *opps*
FINALLY! I felt comfortable wearing
my blazer and showing off to ivan and
group. heh. everyone was hungry then.
and, of course, i suggested LJS
AGAIN! LOL! ivan said :" walao, clarence, can
you patronise another fastfood joint? i
eat till super sian liao. "
heh. sorry ivan, im used to LJS le. so, wont
really that sian. hehe. but at the moment
of time, really sick and tired of LJS, ate
it 5 times last week. like OMG!
ha. went over to burger KING.
yes. KING xD heh. ordered the double
whopper burger with cheese meal and
upsized it (as usual). omg. everyone
dining at BK was staring at us
like "WTH!?! such high
class ppl eating at BK?!"
lols. heck care them la :P carried
on with my meal like a KING.

then we went to Bugis St.
omg lo, dont really like there, where
all those hardcore music kept blasting
into your eardrums and trying to
damage it.. like wth?? lols.
hmm, saw a few white blazers
which caught my eye! sadly, i've
bought 1 liao. :(
other coloured blazers (except brown)
was VERY crappy. except for ONE only.
lols, then nevermind, we walked
parco junction lo. aiseh, since
we nv see any nice blazer at
bugis st. so, stop the search and
start a new search bout long sleeve
shirt. woo, there got a few nice de.
but still not catchy to draw attention
to me. LOLS! sad to say that, and the
pricing was high too. so, not
really that worth it.
hahas.

walk walk walk, den walk till
this shop which is selling long
sleeve shirt, we're waiting for it
to open the dumb door as the dumb
storekeeper went to the washroom
or either slacking. lols. so, since
waited for so darn long already. ivan
started walking off, then, got this
woman shouted :" oei! you want
to see my shop ma? "
den i say ok lo. shes the bloody
lagger which stalls our time. lols.
inside got ALOT ALOT of long shirt.
but only ONE pathetic shirt
caught my fussy eye. too bad, the
pricing was way too high. so, i
recommended zf not to buy lo.
haha. walked off then :P
its like 6pm liao! and i rushed back
to jurong cos got appointment
with my dad to have dinner :)

thats all folks :P

2006-12-10T10:30:00.000+08:00

couldn't you believe that
everything I said and did, wasn't
just deceiving.
remember when I were such fool.
and so convinced and just too cool.
there's just so many things
that I can't touch.. I'm just torned.

our hands are shaking cold
your hands are mine to hold.
I dont want to let it go. as i
said i needed you so.
how do I make you believe
nothing else means as much as
what you mean to me.
you're the one that I need in my arms
Believe me as these words I say are
words that come straight from my heart.
tu amor means this world to me.
the world will be a lonely place
without you to put a smile on my face.

for this christmas, all i wanted is you.
i dont ask for more.

could you please come right back to me
to where you really belonged?
its my mistake for what i've
done.
i just want to hold you close.
feeling your heart so close to mine.

2006-12-06T21:58:00.000+08:00

ok, im just another sick guy.
bloody crap. LET ME DIE! my head
is killing me, headaches are making
extremus pain. cant really think well
for this time being. what a hassle.
taking panadol when there are nothing
left in my house to eat. empty stomach.
just let gastritis burn up my stomach walls
and lemme die.

am i so dumb or what crap shit?
fun to play with me issit.

2006-12-06T00:01:00.000+08:00

yes. IM BACK HOME FROM ORCHARD + BUGIS + MSQUARE!
heh. yes yes yes! its a window shopping spree AGAIN T.T
ok crap! at least today i did bought one shirt lo! rosewood
colour de :P heh. its nice, and saw some beautiful blazers xD
too bad. i went to buy my blazer at 9.30, which at orchard.
most of the shops close at this timing lo. sadded , clarey
is so UNFORTUNATE! hence, did'nt bought it lo! crappy!
went out with some pals today, new faces though. they were
Tony the Tiny, HweeSheng the peanut and Eugene the EUG.
heh. i know its evil to call them these names, but, WHO
CARES?! im clarey the king. i can do everything, anything
i wanted. except for murdering, arson, vandalism, theft, burglary etc.
heh xD

saw this blazer over at G2000. it is DAMN GREAT, yet
budget! heh. im going to buy a casual blazer lo! yay yay!
pricing is $149? or $169. heh, its unique, nice, yet complicated.
love it to bits xD

saw this another blazer at "ebase" or wadever issit spelled.
its a WHITE coloured blazer. ROARS! when i wear it, heh.
only one phrase can describe it "Total Stunning and Gorgeous".
cool lo, if i wear it to prom nite, heh, it'll be different from ANY OTHER
PROM NITE GUYS! o.O thanks to neko for the lookout
for white blazer =) and thanks for Eugene and Hweesheng
for the comments. sorry to neko AGAIN as did'nt let her
see the outfit =(

sorry neko! *cries* for letting you wait inside the freezing
ice skating rink for ONE FULL HOUR! deeply apologize =(
*sniffs*

why did'nt my courage
shown when the time
is ripe? its confusing.
i'll just wait for another
opportunity ba =(

2006-12-02T23:41:00.000+08:00

ok~ as promised. i'll write a DAMN DAMN long post
heh. today went to orchard with ivan and qingwen
as usual. while today has work too. so, timing is
really cropped up, very squeezy and tight for me to
go home, change and meet ivan and qingwen.
yes, although today went home earlier as 2 x 40foot
container was not at Hitachi Elevator, as its container
still onboard the vessel *yays*.

so, 1pm reached home. went to bathe and slacked at msn
and friendster, chat and off i go to meet ivan first as
he called me and said :" hey clarence, where you. me
below your house already, the bus stop there "
which was like OMG lo. did not even bathe yet but
a phone call was made by him. drats. made me bathe
like wth speed -.- ok craps. then met qingwen over at
jurong east long john silvers. while queueing up at the
counter, ivan said some silly things eg. we go and WEE!
like.. naive.. then i was there totally very very embarassed xD
lols. nevermind, then this counter which i was queueing.
the counter took this order "Combo 1 + 2 regular fries + large coke"
LOL. then ok, took the thingy and called for my meal xD
she did gave me everything except for my fries.
and i told her this (sacarstic voice) : " eh. where is my FRIES "

heh and my outfit was a black cap, jacket and jeans.
so, looked like a little beng // fearful lo. xD
she was TOTALLY. yes, TOTALLY stunned and seemed
VERY petrified. heh, did'nt know i was that scary and creepy.
she said :" *grasps* ah sorry sorry! " heh xD
then, paid and went to sit down.
on my table, there was this one black plate, ate finished. left by
this malay family sitting beside me, so, i helped and threw this
rubbish away as its like so bulky in a sense lo. and from the
malay mother's eye, i was a gangster but doing such a kind thing.
which its like omg! im no gangster! T.T

thats why people do classify me under wrong catergories. crap!
ok, lets talk bout after the thingy where i made a whole funny
scene at LJS and went out to take MRT to batok.
met neko over at library as shes meeting this guy lo. T.T

why am i always being
kept in the dark till one
final hour where you told
me that its a guy!

but nevermind lo, she shoo-ed me off like crazy.
kept shoo-ing. sigh~ my life sucked.

ok, then took MRT from batok-je-cityhall-orchard.
reached orchard and went to wisma atria. yup, feeling
slightly down though. ivan, qingwen and me went
to the First Shop of e Day (which is Topman). woohoo!
one blazer cost SGD$238. its ex but NICE! xD
lets see some pictures =)
let the picture do the talking.

me looking VERY stiff :P

heh. i dont know why, but its nice, although
i have stiff shoulders when taking this photo
as i dont really know what pose and my hair
is TOTALLY flat xD cos i wear a cap for the
WHOLE day ma. heh, not totally "on form" *winks*

here's the Group Photo xD

qingwen - ivan - clarey
qingwen the gay
ivan the gay
clarey the straight xD
hehe. this photo is DAMN VALUABLE!
get it from me if anyone wants xD
or the photo ontop :P
ok, its that we're at topman walk walk
and tried this and that on. so, still not up
to our liking. hence, we went to G2000
and look for more blazers xD

*blazer hunting day*

omg lo. g2000 also have one damn nice blazer.
but, did'nt really took lots of photos. hmm, got
one ba.. xD IT LOOKED CRAPPY AND SILLY!
LOL!

heh. with my stupid cap on :P
wore the blazer with my jacket. dummy me.

so, we went out of g2000 and went to Levi's.
OMG lo, do not have the jeans we wanted. so, moved
onto sitting down as our butts are KILLING US!
so damn tiring, go towards LJS AGAIN and eat. -.-
this time round, no mood le. sigh, tml den try to complete
this entry ba. 11.41pm now T.T

im sorry. should'nt have
pulled the trigger to the
explosion into our worlds.
give me a chance to redeem.
im the most lethargic and the
most most MOST useless
fool in this world.

2006-11-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

heh. went to Fish & Co. today for dinner. how sweet xD
just that there's this sms thingy which is pretty disturbing
for me lo. sigh! but anyways, its sweet eating it with HER.
wore my new adidas jacket. dont know whats the review lo
T.T hope its good onto me. hehe.
sleeping now though. hope tomorrow is a better day =)
ciaos.

Cheers~

shall we?
lets dance anywhere
where its mooonlitted
and the ambience is
great.

2006-11-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

5 more days to shopping spree!
im excited! xD
oh yea. guess what. chien juen
said my shopping spree
on sunday was :" wa lao clarence, you
shop more than a girl lo ".
LOL. long time i never heard that
phrase le! YAY! xD

FIVE MORE DAYS!

2006-11-26T21:26:00.000+08:00

went out with wilson and joshua to
expo for the adidas warehouse sale, met
wilson over at 1.30, as usual, hes late. fancy
making me wait for him for 15 minutes. like omg!
and supposingly, im meeting joshua over at
expo at 2pm while 1pm im ready to step foot
out of my house. crap right?

then, after meeting wilson at jurong east mrt
platform. saw chienjuen and ruiying at the last
cabin of the train towards Pasir Ris lo. heh.
cant believe it right? its so coincidential =P

we chat till they missed their stop ( dhouby ghout)
as they planning to go to Vivo City to buy
some prom nite clothings. then, they shall take
from city hall back to dhouby. =) since its
my fault for chatting and yakking all day
since we met on the train, wilson and i decided
to heck care joshua ( which is at Expo waiting )
and just take the train backwards to dhouby with
the girls. ok crap, ends.

met joshua then at Expo. omg, the fair is really
really really DUMB. heh, only a few soccer
boots with studs were left and some crappy
shirts. which, is not up to my desire to buy it =P.
heh, waste time lo! buggers!

ok. then went to vivo with josh's family and wilson.
omg! ADIDAS SHOP! omgomgomgomgomgomg!
the shop is DARN BIG! heh. bought a jacket =)
omg! cost me a bomb. $149 T.T
ends =P

im too tired of my
existence in life.
without you, its
hard to survive.

2006-11-25T23:33:00.000+08:00

went to adidas shop(IMM) rather
than adidas fair (expo) today T.T
heard from my friend that no more
stock except shoes and gross designs
bags. over at IMM adidas shop.
also dun have the things i wanted
except for one very nice designed
jacket. power! =P

sigh.. everything goes utterly wrong
for me today. no mood at all lo.
my whole world crumbles
right after 10.30pm lo.
sigh, will stop right here ba. =(

sorry, if i caused disruption. i never
knew the message is wasting your
time. should have kept my fingers
to stop typing such message.
guess thats The End of this
world for me already.
sorry *cries*

2006-11-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

omg, the ADIDAS sale at EXPO
is almost OUT OF STOCK! OMG!
heard this info from my friend!
its like, first day only, and almost out of
stock. oh my! =(

sigh. where are you?
you said you'll be gone for
only one day. and i cant
take this heat anymore.
please, come back to me.
*cries*

2006-11-23T18:24:00.000+08:00

seriously. i had nothing to say.
it felt that im like a girl.
having moodswings all over. hard
to cope with my life. includes
working and all crap attacked my mood.
and wth, today at KD ( Keppel Districpark )
got one cashier at warehouse, totally destroyed
my mood and changed the menu of
"Mood Of The Day" to a bad one. OMG!

kept pondering, WHY AM I A GUY?
its tough being one, i dont know why.
but, it sucked totally. guys are not favoured
by their own gender, while they favours
the pretty girls at those roadshows, skimpy
clothes. even adorable girls were being stared
and being given special privileges. its true
that guys gets it too. BUT, only after
gaining fame. somehow or rather, people
dont believe this. till a point, u'll understand
the ups and downs im going thru.

hence, talking to my cus now. we said
this :" lets cry, its really tough being a guy ".

tuned into the radio, and heard 98.7FM
in the morning few days ago. Muttons In The Morning
as usual.
Justin told this :"i want to add one
more characteristic to Singaporeans"
vernon :" i know, kiasee, kiasu and litterbugs"
justin :" no, one more"
vernon :" come on mutton, u kidding? "
justin :" nope. Singaporeans are Chi-Ko-Pek"
justin :"during Singapore Motor Show 06', the
guys were'nt looking at the cars, lets to be exact.
only 4 were viewing it, WHILE 400 WERE
LOOKING AT THE CAR MODELS and hoping
to take a photo with them!"

listened to this, i really felt that there's something
really wrong with the guys. GOING over to
see babes and taking photos, sigh.
this society has went haywired. =(

where am i when you needed
the most? working but why
cant i be there just to hold
you tight? stop the pain.
dont i sucked being a
guy. sorry.

2006-11-19T21:35:00.000+08:00

ok, this and that. that and this
this and that and that and this.
get that?

nuff craps. get back to reality =)
you see. nowadays, people from all
around the world starts to discriminate
themselves like theres no tomorrow.
hence, curbing this emotion//feeling from
individual minds is hard as there're stubborn
ducks sitting around and having
to say everything bout their flaws but
nothing bout their forte.
so, whats wrong? there is NOTHING
wrong bout saying all your flaws. but its
an irritant for us people which lends you
a listening ear to be irritated by all
rantings and whinings.

ok. craps nuff said.

this morning, went to eat Subway as usual lo.
omg. FOOTLONG as usual too =x but, went
to get a Cold Cut Trio. hmm, okok la
ham, ham, and more hams. ugghy!
lols. tts all bout today, yst more funny.
________________
Yesterday
-----------------------

went to gym as usual.
its like OMG! so hilarious.
this kid, approximately 9 years old.
at the gym doing workout, probably
60kg. the kid which i named "muthu"
went to a station where its only
for those big sized guys to have bigger
and nicer body. while this one guy
were doing this station with 30kg on both
sides. muthu went towards this
thingy and accidentally hit the guy's
stomach. the guy after the brutal assault
which muthu made, he went totally breathless
and was gasping for air. LOL. then, he come
towards my direction and talk to the
gym trainer which was beside us lo.
he spoke in dialect saying :" wa lan, zi eh
siao gina pa wa eh stomach leh " which meant
wa lan, this crazy boy smack my stomach leh.
LOL
damn hilarious. everyone beside the trainer
laughed our butts off lo. its like, hahahs. fancy
being hit by a small boy and went breathless.
but, cant blame lo, total 60kg leh. hit liao
sure no strength. haha. =)

guess that
im not that
great enough
for you.

2006-11-14T14:14:00.000+08:00

ok. 3d2n T.T
its devastating to see you
going to school for 3d2n.
while im gonna rot at home and
rot at PSA ( Keppel Districpark ).
argh lo!

nvm, after sending.
went over to PSA PASS CENTRE
to collect my gay Permanent Pass
into psa lo. wow, its is biometric inbuilt!
OMG! Singapore is totally upgrading
everything to biometric. even new
IC uses electronic fingerprints nw!
cool right?
heh.

find one day i'll post my PSA Biometric pass
for you guys to view =)

now, im off to my 1day chalet at
pasir ris which is Proudly Organised by
Ivan Lam Wei Jie! ha!

2006-11-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

OH MY!
so scared when i saw one conv.
aww~
bully girls siah Wilson Lee Jun Hua.
wow. u said this :"blocked him awhile to make him
quiet and it works!"
wow. block me. you're such a wimp dude.
lets have some verbal arguements sure?
challenge me to it xD. lets see who shall triumph.
frankly speaking. i can knock you down with
JUST ONE blow. =)

not in any need of assistance and nt to be
in anyway of a bragging style. come on, it
is scientifically that if one hits a person who is
bigger size than you on the joints / vital
points which i learnt b4. you'll be down in a few secs.
be with the flow la ahbang. xD

so, please. Tae-Kwon-Do. use them on battlefield
and you'll TRUIMPH <--- bullshit!

btw, 4 years friend. play till liddat. wan BLOCK
somemore. faceless void ah? please la hor, val
dont WISH to rape u =) she has no other intention
or anything that related to sexual things/ referrence.

so, thats the crap when i came back home ard 10pm+
haha.

b4 i reached home, went out wif neko~ neky neky neko~
LOL! went to playground at lake park lo.
hahahs, play play play like kids sia, and i was
wearing jeans lo. so wet! got puddles! bottom
of my jeans there totally wet. shoes were
wet too. xD kiddy me. hahahs, chat for very long
while we're on the see-saw. alot of things we nv
know bout each other and other stuff.

played the rope thingy, when jump, the rope
will juggy here juggy there thingy. LOL.
neko is SCARED of heights! ha xD

i would never want to
live in this world alone.
without you, life is much much
different from what im
going thru with you.

2006-11-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

ok. im really sorry to jessica and huplian for not wishing them
happy b'dae LOL! heh. alrites. today, morning 3.15am, wa
lao eh. one commando mosquito ( rank : Colonel ) stung and
sucked my blood at my right elbow, left leg, right leg, left arm.
its like, really commando. even with my blanket on, that
little mischievious mosquito still can bite. pro pro! no holes
were left open for the mosquito to suck lo. so, i woke up and threw
my blanket away. OMG! then the mosquito said :" HELLO! ". IT
WAS SUPER CLEARLY THAT HE LAUGH AT ME becos i kept
him INSIDE my blanket. aRGH!
silly me =(

ok, then no mood to sleep. damn!

went to work as usual. sleepless night too. woohoo, a trailer's
container went crashing down at the port's bay. luckily, none
was hurt during the incident happened, did not made any congestion
at the customs. ha. the trailer's company gonna pay FULL amount
for the damage in the goods. easily cost up to $SGD 400k lo.
as container is damaged + goods too.

so, after everything at the port. my job is done, whatever. LOL.
went back home ASAP. bathe and went out with my jacket + ikan AGAIN!
met neko and went to eat a pasta at pizza hut. now so darn hungry. arghghgh.

can time stop and let us
enjoy the finest moments?

2006-11-05T09:11:00.000+08:00

Jesse McCartney - Just so you know

argh lo. kept working. no time spent with ivan for
these few days. sorry! =(
heh.

its so weird. i cant pei ivan, but can pei val
go out to eat pizza lo. like.. haha, pangseh! LOL
kiddin' k? yeah. speaking of one particular day.
made me smile and laugh like roflmao.

so, bout the one day. around 6pm reached home. as
work totally tied me down. argh! hence, when reach home. i took
a quick bath, and went out wearing my fav ikan, polyester
jacket, navy singlet and my fav pair of converse sneakers lo.
ha, act like so beng sia when i wear these. hehehe xD
took a cab ASAP and went to JP lib to find val ( surprised ? ).
its like. im UBER LATE! as we meet at 6.
sorry again =( shes outside waiting for me lo.
argh, WHY MUST I BE LATE!
such a bad impression for a girl to wait for a guy.
ok, so, went to pizza hut and eat. eat eat eat.
val was like :" no~ i not hungry " those kiddy sound arh
hahahs. but, i dont really care =) know shes hungry already
since the whole afternoon, she only ate ONE packet of
instanious noodles only! its like, i need 3 packets of
noodles when im at camp lo! argh! im fat =x

went into pizza hut, wow. great service. brightens my day.
lol. ordered the meal, 9" pizza meal with 2
carbonated drinks and soup of the day which is mush soup =)
its pretty much like Campbell's soup lo.. just that the
soup is much thicker. pizza arrives like a majestic imperial
holy food. * Hail the Pizza *. im too hungry lo. ha.

ok, eat and went home. LOL
fast ba the ending?

'Cause she'll never be mine
as i know i never will be
good enough for her.

2006-10-30T20:22:00.000+08:00

right.. monday..
WORK, WORk, WOrk, Work and work.
tiring ok~ came in and out of PSA
( Port of Singapore Authority )
friggin hell 5 times in total. dang!
so wasting time lo, and luckily. i
was attached to my father's best
worker. Alex. wow, inside PSA. NOT
A EASY FRIGGIN JOB OK! i need to
emphasise on this word "SAFETY!".
i was almost knocked down by a giant forklift
and a dozens of forklifts. they dont give
a darn to who you are. their job is to
drive fast ( ignoring safety ) and act
fast. if not, cannot go home early ( wtf? ).

ok, 7am wake up, and went to eat.
then, went to taman jurong industrial estates
there de heavy vehicle park to hop into
one of my pop's lorry. after i hopped on.
the driver ( alex ) drove like he was chased
by police! oh my. so, reached PSA. made a
temp.PSA pass xD. haha. damn cute k!
so, went into PSA, do unloading of containers and
WENT out to drop off the goods at other
warehouses. tiring.. work till 12+
lunch break. so tired. till i slept in the lorry since
its LUNCH. i mean after i eat ok!
haha.

then, 1.30pm. "Liner Shipping Industry" opened
up, hence, we can pack the goods and put it
on pallets ( a structure made by wood ). omg.
250 cartons alrights?! ok. be a man.
after all the hardships, i do really
expect a break from it ( go home. )
BUT! OMG?!
some crap worker jammed at "Sankyu" and "Chuan Hee Siong"
or whatever. for Sankyu, it was barrels.
Chuan Hee Shit was Black and Decker.
since we are near to the barrels. my pop told
me to learn how to load barrel up to the
friggin lorry, omg can?
its like, 400kg? REFINED LIQUIDS!
what if i drop it? $20,0000 SGD GONE!
NOOOooo! im not gonna pay it ok!
so, i negotiate it, can go to Black and Decker! yay.

yups, reach black and decker, 4 cartons have HUGE
holes. omg?
nvm, pack pack pack, went to pallet, go up lorry, went back
to the passenger seat in lorry, went to last destination
which is at Toh Guan Rd there. CJ GLS Private Ltd.
luckily.
there got forklift to help us. if not, my bones
will shatter xD
haha. thats all !

i wished for a rain to
come into this world
when im free to meet u xD

2006-10-29T21:50:00.000+08:00

hahas. today wake up so darn early!
ate Subway with my brother,brother's gf
and my mom.. w00ts! guess what?
believe it or not. i ate
a Foot Long Teriyaki Chicken
sandwich! OMG?! its damn bloating! lol.
cant stand the sprite. cos bread
mixes with water = expands.
and sprite is a HIGHLY carbonated drink.
which enhances the process to be stronger
and faster! and after i ate
3/4 of the foot long. my stomach cant
take the heat already. hahas xD
pretty silly right? too bad.
i gorged myself to eat the remaining
1/4 of the sandwich. omg. lols arghh~
haha. walked down to the basement of
jp to take the personal transport where my
bro drove us home.
i was walking like a old hag. lols =(
drats. made me embarassed when i was walking.
hahas xD

ok. and, tml, im going to work lo. under my
father's wing. heh. entering
PSA ( Port of Singapore Authority ) to do
those transporting via lorries and under
the freight warehousing // shipping barhs. xD
sorry cindy~ cant pei u go eat breakfast lo.
timing very tied up ah.. lols xD

will ever the rain comes?
im waiting..

2006-10-27T13:37:00.000+08:00

ok, guess who's back? xD
alrites. craps over.
for these past 2 - 3 days, i've
been on my class chalet doing all
these planning, running, staying
overnight. etc.

it really tired the highly recognised
clarence for enduring hardship!
what to say is that, my classmates
and me played "Halo II" on xbox which
i brought over to chalet for
enjoyment reasons to control the boredom
everyone had in their previous outings and all
sorts of bad organising xD. *hees*

for first day, my group and me, went to
bought fresh new rayfishes a.k.a stingray
measured 7kg, slowly, rays were
given to the "chopper" which chopped into
smaller portions for the whole
class to enjoy the
SAMBA STINGRAY for the barbecue on
the second night. we've walked around
of jurong east IMM's GIANT
to get tidbits and barbecue stuffs.
really tiring, after bought those stuff.
calculated the total cost of rays, chicken
wings, hot dogs, otah, chips, plates etc.
+ chalet booking is $SGD 300+
damn ex rites? xD

alrites, after buying the items for bbq.
my group went walking back to
qingwen's house for grabbin of our
bags and then, head towards the
HOLY ANGELIC TYPE chalet xD
i mean Aloha Loyang.

upon reaching of our destination ( loyang //pasir ris).
i've been asked from my form teacher
miss angelina tan to check-in the
bungalow which she helped
us (4G) to book the bungalow.

lets see at some pictures..

me, before bathing + going out..

kangwei standing infront of our
chalet's number + name ((:

guess what is he saying?
alrights, he said :" cheese"

aint this scenery nice?

lousy gamers playing HALO II..
easily owned by me. xD

she is our teacher miss tan.
what does her expression says?

me idling and dazing away..

and ME again. lols. another zilian pic xD

ok. till here then, lazy to update all at a shot. hahas.

2006-10-22T12:02:00.000+08:00

yuupps. im back after 1 year of break from bl0gger =)
doing the skins now. first post not
gonna explain much xD hahahas.