disintegrate

rate

guess what??
im just pretty broken down.
do we really need to think about the
past which have already happened?

why am i so pessimistic?
why cant i be optimistic about BGR?!
why does it suck so much that your current
still cant forget her ex?!

for fuck sake.
i cant believe im living like nobody's business!
like what im doing everynow and then.
walking past these painful
roads of life.
could you forget him?!

i really do not have the answer.
and im really pretty stressed out!

all these while, i know that you're
the perfected one for me. but i didn't
expected that what i believed in.
still is not yet refined in the actual.
could i change her everything?
should i go back to my olden days
where i sniff up some nose inhaler?
or now, choose smoking as my
part time hobby?
wtf?!

im stressed out again.
i dont know how much longer
could i stand these pain.
BGR is an important factor
to lead me to great success in my
o levels.
not that im using BGR
as a success. but im establishing
it at a same time.
formally, we'll call it "Multi-Tasking".

sigh.
but what i've read from my
other half's blog made my mind
in a whirl now. im really confused.
the pain is immense.
and i cant take it..
should i endure?
i guess i should..
because... i love her!

92 days being through thick and thin!